Feeling like the thing you see in your toilet bowl after a stomachache

ok. I'm feeling like SHIT now... I have no one to talk to abt my shameful thoughts so I have to rant on n on on this blog that nobody reads. Sometimes how i wish the person i intended for to read this blog would suddenly accidentally fall upon this post...

OK, I'm feeling terribly down now (due or not due to PMS). I have EIGHT lesson plans to rush, my English lessons 'bible' is lost (how in the world am i going to find another copy to return to my teacher??); I found out that someone was with someone in korea, and i'm feeling so freakin' jealous or sad or pissed or whatever that feeling is; all these leads to me thinking why the hell am i thinking of that someone n someone when I have my bf?? and that makes me feel damn shittyly guilty. ARGH... why cant i juz get over that idiot n lead a happy life with a bf that treats me nice (despite all his flaws)?? IZZIT THAT DIFFICULT?? OMG someone please kill me.

I've been thinking (non-stop) of him... everything i do i think of him. everywhere i go i think of him. Everything I think i think of him. When will all these ever stop?? All i ever wanted was a simple and peaceful life. At first with HIM, but now all i ask for is a simple life without him. WITHOUT HIM FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

Thinking of all the bad things he did in the past and all the negative things that would happen in the future even if we are together, is not helping at all. WHY?!

I wish I can treat my bf better. Stop scolding him. Agree to let him hold my hand, agree to kiss him good nite. Just be as good a gf as I would with HIM. I wish. I really really wish. =(

Introducing....~ ELVIN NG~!!!

OMGOMGOMG... Saturday was the BEST day for me since you left... I saw Elvin Ng at Phuture... ELVIN NG LEH!!! HE IS DAMN CUTE LA!! *blush* took a picture with him... Very ugly... But nvr mind... i dun care... he cute can aready... hee... I noe I haven't been updating my blog, but I HAVE TO BLOG ABT THIS... OMG OMG OMG... *heart beat fast fast*...

He even remembered my name is Midori!! aWww... so sweet... Although he was tipsy and maybe cannot even remember talking to me that nite... But I'm contented as it is... =) Din manage to get any contacts from him... *shrug* =(

But its still nice to see him... At least he got u off my mind for quite a few days... hee... So i shall announce him potential candidate! Since u say u got so many potential ones there... japanese... koreans... hai... *shrug*

Glad I went Zouk that nite... Din wan to go at first... HENG I WENT... hahaha... I really hope to see him again! And although Singapore is only a teeny weeny dot... It is not so easy to BUMP into someone lor.. hai~ he stay Jurong I think... Near NIE! But i having hols soon! Oh man... *sian-nified* =(

Okie... Enuff for now... Off to do assignments! But b4 I sign off....

ELVIN!! *mUaCk!* hee... *blush*

O_o 楊偉豐 is missing someone...

Is it me you are missing.......

Tell me it is......




please tell me it is.....

WooHoo~~!

Gigi is back!!

*love love*

mUaCk!

Isaac's Bird Day

11th October 2008 - 12th October 2008

It was Isaac's bird day at Dbl O... Promised him i'll go and so i did.... Was quite boring... din drink... and was busy being his photographer... "Midori!! Take photo!!!" "Midori!! Where are you?!! Take PHOTO!!!!" Okok... take photo take photo... Birdday boy was high n drunk so i had to be his escort and bodyguard... AND PHOTOGRAPHER... -_-

Bored me self-taking...

Isaac (Birdday Boy) and I

Lionel Koh and I


Kooichi and I


Jason Chua and I


Isaac and I (with his present)

Din get to drink nor dance... So it was a sober and tiring nite for me... Din noe many ppl there... Ony Isaac, Lionel and Kooichi... So busy running around with birdday boy... Stayed throughout the nite til 4am... then loitered outside and AROUND Dbl O area with the birdday boy... He had to entertain his frens... take somemore pictures... kiss somemore gals (Heng I photographer so he nvr got to kiss me).... Buy water for him... take somemore pictures... then take pictures again... hai...~ *tired*

The most looked-forward-to picture by everyone - Isaac and his two most beloved gals

Then even had to send him home... FIRST TIME EVER I SENT A GUY HOME... -_- Then gotto go home myself... Heng morning aready... no need pay midnight again....

Then next day we went for a proper lunch with the rest... But nvr take photo... SICK N TIRED OF TAKING PHOTOS... haha... Then after lunch went for mahjong... first time playing with them... Shared with Isaac, insisted he play dong nan, I play xi bei... So at least can recoup abit... hahaha.... in the end really lor.. he lost more than half by nan feng... So i had to slowly win back everything,... then he played dong again... then lose back again... in the end lost 8bucks... ok... not that bad... haha... i took it as my QING CHANG VERY DE YI... *giggles*

Played til midnight... then talked to Isaac while the rest look at photos... Then went home... Good thing Isaac send me home this time... If not he would have broken my record of sending guys home... haha... And it was the end of my weekend...

Isaac and I while waiting for the rest to see photo...

I blog so many aready... But my dear is still nowhere to be detected... I went round finding his vcd for him... found one set... but all in chinese... sian... then i found another set... going tiong bahru after school tmr to collect... hope this time would be correct one! Hang on ok dear! I'm trying my best! And pls pls pls come online more often.. i really miss you miss until i'm DYING aready... =( Ok, gotto go slp aready... gotto wake up in 3 hours time... sian... =(

*Looking forward to seeing my dear dear online soon....* *Pray hard* This was Isaac when he was a kid. Juz wanted to borrow his "prayers".

The Irritatingness of Love

It was a long and boring day... Except for the few moments dear was online... Felt so happy seeing him... talking to him... too bad i was having lessons, so cannot talk to him properly... n he had to leave soon n i had to start my test... =( But its ok... It had been a looong time since we 'saw' or spoke to each other... so am happy enuff to finally get to see him... =) *Pray hard hard that dear quickly get his internet access in his dorm so that i can see him more often...*

Went to get some things... spent alot of money.... (oh no... my jap trip how... =( ) Met my sis for dvd shopping and dinner... then came home... wanted to watch dvd but ended up doing our own things... Just as i was abt to log off an old fren msn me... Talked for awhile... and he started flirting with me... Felt so weird... Kept trying to change topic or say something to put him down... but he manages to bring up something to flirt each time... He used to be a crush of mine... so in the past i'll VERY willingly flirt along with him... but now i feel so ARGH and er xin-nified i JUST cannot do it... And all i can think of is dear dear... no mood or wad to flirt with anyone else... Midori ah Midori... hai...~ (And thats the irritatingness of Love, u become someone else... But still feel blissful about it... IRRITATING RIGHT... -_- )

Guess I'll stop here... no mood to continue... Dear dear oso very long nvr update his blog aready... so lazy... *beat backside* hee...

Isaac's bday celebration party tmr... will be going dbl o... hai... hope i wun get drunk... *Pray hard* and hope dear wun get upset or angry... I promise I will be a good ger... Quick quick get ur internet access okie... I really miss you alot... I wan to fast fast see u! Miss you darling... *mUaCk!* =)

Happy Birthday Gramma

Ok.... Woke up this afternoon thinking whether I should go to the chalet... Think think think... In the end fell asleep... And by the time I woke up, my mum 'reminded' us sisters to go for gramma's birthday dinner at bendemeer (which both of us had NO CLUE ABOUT...) So I stopped thinking abt chalet and went back to 'sleep'... basically juz lying there with eyes closed (and sun burning me)... All these while my laptop was on... waiting for SOMEONE to be online... but think its weekend so he did not go to school so he did not have internet access.. =( Its ok... hope he will have enuff rest and fun b4 school starts... but i'm sure he will have fun even after school starts... =)

So I slowly got ready for dinner... And my sis told me she'll reach early cos she's aready on her way from town... Then i rushed out of home to meet her... I was abt to reach so called her.. AND SHE IS STILL AT SUNTEC... -_- Nvr mind... slowly walked there and met my aunt n cousins... so we walked there together and talked on the way... been sometime since we had a talk like that... Quite nice... =)

Then we went for dinner... Talked.. Joked... Played... Oh, the kids were ADORABLE... Somehow i feel kids like me... dono good or bad... but... yah... they liked me... =) So dinner was served one course after another... OH SHOOTS... I NEVER TAKE PHOTOS OF THE FOOD... -_-! wads wrong with me sia... hai... nvr mind... Wel... dinner was normal... But it was fun meeting up with my family... even better than the other time... (which after that I went to my dear's to play mahjong... remember? *sweet grin*)

My adorable nephew Jacques (read 'Jug') =)

And so I'll fast forward... Finished the 9 courses... and everyone headed back... feeling quite sad cos my cousin and her family would be going to australia for 2 years.. I'll miss them... =(

My oh-so-cute niece Andrea who is leaving for Australia (Oh my... ) *grins*

Took the train with my sisters... Came home and watched abit of tv... played with RK... watched dvd... Then started to blog... Its now 0213am... Its been sometime since I talked 'properly' with my dear... Wonder how is he... Whether my ktv session and (boring and drinkless) pubbing affected him in any way... He nan de call me n i had to ruin everything... *whack my own head*

Hai... I'll be going to a fren's birthday bash at dbl o this coming saturday... Have to go since he invited... and he prepared a 'present' for himself - To use his 'present privillege' to trade with my reconcillation with another gal... silly him... long story... but he's giving up the present another gal is giving him juz for her to promise she'll patch things up with me... hai...~ am i worth all these trouble? *shrug*

anyway... time for me to go shower and slp... in hope i'll see my dear in dreamland (smelling nice)... School's starting soon... Jia you orh darling... Gambate ne~! *pull right clenched arm downwards while tilting head to the right - quoting Zhiwei) Hee.... *giggles*

All the best in whatever u do... I'll be right here for you should you need me... I miss you dear... =)